It's been a year and a 1/2...

I haven't updated this blog for a year and 1/2...wow!  I think while I was pregnant with Liam I was stressed about if everything was going okay...that ultrasound that left so many questions also left me feeling paralyzed with uncertainty about the future.  Simple things like blogging didn't seem important anymore.  When Liam was born he was colicky...he would cry for hours on end...I had to be so strict in my diet...no chocolate...no dairy...nothing spicy...and even then...even then it was tough...really tough.  I could never put him down...ever.  He would immediately wake up and scream...and not stop screaming...I held him, nursed him, rocked him, put him to sleep and didn't dare move once he was asleep so he would stay asleep for his naps...he slept in our bed until he was 10 months old...it was only then that his tummy issues began to improve and we attempted to put him in his own bed...in his own room...which had never been used yet.  As difficult as this was...and it was one of the most difficult things Jason & I (and the kids!) went through...it was not without its joys...When Liam was held he was a lot of the time happy and calm...my mind is full of images of smiles and giggles and chubby toothless grins...chubby feet and hands and toes and most of all an overwhelming sense of joy and peace and whisperings of the Spirit that Liam is supposed to be a part of our family, that he's happy to be here...that we're blessed to have him here...that this trial of his tummy won't last forever.  I felt strength and help from unseen hands and the Lord easing my burden by helping me function on almost no solid sleep...and children who were patient and loving and willing to help...miracles were all around us and I don't want to forget the Lord's tender mercies in our life.  I am thankful.