So Behind....

Being pregnant and nauseous and taking Unisom (a sleeping aid that also helps with nausea, but leaves you tired all the time) has made me feel so out of the loop. I'm 15 weeks along now and the morning sickness is starting to get better although it's not gone completely yet, and I still have to take Unisom...for now...I'm hoping next week I'll be able to slowly get off of that without getting too sick...I already tried to go down to 1/2 a tablet and I was sick (laid out on the couch kind of sick) for three days after that!...so I'm slightly scared to try that again too soon...better to be tired than sick that's for sure! Anyway, the purpose of this post is just to say that I feel like I'm finally starting to wake up from a somewhat bad dream and join the real world again! (I say bad dream because of the sickness...not because of the pregnancy). Anyway, that's the best way I can describe it, and being out of the loop I am sooo behind on blog posts...I didn't even post any soccer pictures of the boys which pretty much consumed most of our late Summer and early Fall going to and from practices and games. The boys loved it, and were sad to see it end. Mommy and Daddy were sad to see it end too, but also glad to have our evenings back! I can't even think of what else I have not posted on here over the last several months...another reason for the lack of posts has been my own fears over the complications of my pregnancy and feeling...stuck...is the only way I can describe it...like nothing else I posted really mattered until I knew if my baby was okay. I don't know if that makes any sense, and I realize that I'm rambling...but this is my blog so I'm allowed, right? As for an update on the baby's condition...things are looking pretty good. I did have some more bleeding, but the doctor said it was from the original tear of the placenta and that the baby is doing fine. He said that while I'm still at a higher risk for miscarriage than the average pregnancy that now that I'm past the first trimester that risk is only 5-10% risk of miscarriage. So I'm feeling some relief after my last doctor's visit. Of course, hearing the heartbeat was great. It took a little longer than normal to find the heartbeat so I got a little nervous, but was definitely relieved when he found it. I was doing find holding my emotions in until he showed me sympathy and said how hard it is when you're worrying about the safety of your baby. Have you ever had that happen to you where you're holding it together fine until someone shows you sympathy and then...here come the waterworks! Unfortunately, I was crying so I wasn't able to talk very well to ask too many questions, but the important thing is that the baby is doing well. I have my ultrasound scheduled for Dec. 8th...I'll only be a little over 18 weeks along, but the doctor said that given the complications, he doesn't want to make me wait any longer to have the ultrasound and get some reassurance and also to be able to find out if it's a boy or a girl...so exciting! Now, my goal is to post some pictures from this Summer and Fall and try to catch up on my blog...